Saudade – Part 1

Longing for someone or something.

Longing for someone or something.

She was the perfect girl. He admired her strongly. He liked everything about her. She was his friend, his confidante. He was also super excited about being in a different city with her together. They laughed, they played, had crazy adventures. Until one day reality struck. He was a Muslim and she was a Hindu. An unlikely pairing and a forbidden one. He chose to let go off her. Abruptly. Without telling her why, or what. I don’t know her scenario, but he was heartbroken. He knew it wouldn’t work, that no matter how hard they would try, the gap was just too big. He couldn’t make either party unhappy – neither his parents, nor her. He couldn’t subject someone like her to a world so different. He walked away and prayed and prayed that she would get on with her life. Well, she did. Women are resilient creatures. But then one day, out of the blue, he saw her at a restaurant. She acted like nothing was wrong. She never said a word of reproach. She was just her usual nice self. And suddenly, he was desperate, desperate to ask how she was, how was everything, if she was moving on, if she was happy. Anything, Anything at all to have some connection, that spark, that bound them together. You just smile, laugh, make small talk and pretend everything is okay. But that moment was stuck in his heart – her eyes, her smile. He couldn’t get over it. It just stayed as a hard solidified ball of pain in his heart, as he watched her walk away. He was scarred for a lifetime.

Saudade(meaning) : A Portuguese word that is difficult to translate adequately. It describes a deep emotional state of nostalgic longing for something or someone that was fond of and which is lost. It also describes a deep longing for something unattainable or that which doesn’t exist. Saudade was described as “the love that stays” or the “love that remains” after someone is gone.

Note: While I personally feel, it is not up to a guy to make decisions like this, this story rankles me. A lot of people are passionately in love with people they cannot have. Its a sort of obsession that you dont get over easily – Saudade


2 thoughts on “Saudade – Part 1

  1. It’s really nice to see such an interesting blog. The whole idea of Saudade is presented with such finesse. You have expressed the concept so well through your story… I was hooked on to it! Great Job!

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